I couldn't be...

happier. I am finally back to my desk where I belong. I was so miserable. I never knew I was so attached to my desk. LOL! I felt so lost. I didn't know my lefts and rights, ups and downs. I was all over the place.

But I AM HOME! *all smiles*

So happy...

my cubicle is done with the paint job. Now I can finally move out of the "fish bowl". I hate being in there and had no idea why the boss keeps telling me not to get used to the office. I don't want to be in there. So tomorrow I will be moving out of there. THANK BUDDHA!

Today was an okay day. I did what I had to do and then some. ;). Anyways, people were getting on my nerves. When I speak to someone and they act like they are better than me and think they are oblivious to what I'm saying, I want to flip them off but I don't. Not because I have respect for them, its because I have no time to stoop to their level. Damn, eff the happiness, I am pissed after all.



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Am I?...

Women are funny. We don't want to hear the word FAT!!! I don't mind hearing it then I would be in the presence of the reality. Sometimes reality is cruel and harsh but I like facing it. =)

If there is...

a loser-ville, "he" would be the president. "He" needs to get off that high horse and get over it!

I am pissed!

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Hello Monday!...

I had planned to write something over the weekend and it didn't happen. Every time I started to write something, I got up to 4 lines and then I just say to myself, this is a bad blog and I deleted the whole thing. It happened like 5 times so I told myself not to even write anything.

I had fun spending time with my friend and her family. She threw down the best breakfasts and lunch ever and of course right after my mom. We haven't seen each other in years. I enjoyed the family time and the girls time.

Even though I had a busy weekend, I am better this morning than I thought I was going to be. I had today played out in my mind as I was going to be restless and tired. But hey, I am not back in the office yet. It can be a hectic day in there because I might have to move back to my desk. I can't wait! I mean it was alright being in the office and all but I got all these jealous people saying congratulations and asking me when I got the promotion. If you ass wipes see the whole in the wall by my desk, you wouldn't be saying that. And I hated the office because I felt like I was on the display. I don't think I would be able to scratch my ass without everyone seeing. When I have the best seat in the house why would I want that office. They wouldn't understand that because they are all children in there.

Anyways...I was in short skirt and flip flops over the weekend and now I am freezing. :( I wish I don't have to deal with the cold. I don't think I will ever get used to this weather.

I hope everyone had a great weekend and Happy Monday! And Happy Lunar New Year!!!

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Can we say...

"STALKER"?

There was a guy at the bus stop who started talking to me since last year like I want to talk to him. He is so annoying. So now I either get my ass up really early for the bus or leave late from my house so I won't run into him. Now if I catch or I should say if he catches me at the bus stop, that means he will be on the same train for sure. I HATE IT!!!

Anyways..I have been doing a good job of dodging his behind and today...it was epic failed!!! I am disappointed at myself. I was at the bus stop and happy that I didn't see him. So of course, I did what I do best in the morning...I was on BBM (the best thing ever!!!) I looked up on the bus and there he was. But when I looked up, he must have been preoccupied with stuff because I didn't see him see me. Then I quickly put my head back into my BB like yesterday. LOL. Then I felt paper balls coming at me. Of course, the stalker was throwing at me. I totally ignored that one. Such a child! Then there was a kid and his mother so I gave my seat for them and I was practically running to the back of the bus. And he followed me...UGH! So i pretended I didn't see him. The end of the bus ride, the dude waited for me since he got off before me. (can we say "STALKER"?) Then I pretended and acted like I was oblivious to my surroundings and went straight into Dunkin Donut (by the way, no plan to have coffee this morning!)

After that I was hoping he caught the train before I got there. Not a chance!!! He was there and even called my name out so I acted like I didn't see or hear him (this is where my blasted IPOD helped me out) and since the train arrived at the same time as I got down there, I went two doors down from him to catch the train. Guess what?! He came and sat right next to me. I was pissed. Where was the crowd who pushed me on the train everyday like I am invisible? Anyways, I had no choice bu to talk to him because he was in my face. Then he admitted that he was throwing paper balls at me and I didn't feel them. Who does that? (rhitorical question! =7 )

Can we say "STALKER"?

Conflict...

I am having some conflicts on wanting to write the blog or not writing anymore. I need to think about that.

While I'm pondering, I wonder how President Obama is doing in his oval office and the first family is adjusting to their new house...

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As much as...

I love spontaneous things, I hate unplanned events. Once again, I know I am not making sense to anyone but I know exactly what I mean.

I woke up this morning and changed my get ready routine so I felt all unorganized but what the hey, right! Anyways, Thursday are slow days at work and I didn't feel like working but I knew I have to so I did my work and everything was going great until people showed up at my desk and evacuated me from my desk so they can fix the hole in the wall that was behind my cubicle. That basically meant I needed to get out of there like YESTERDAY. I get off at 4:30 and all this was happening at 3:30. Does anyone know how much shit I got up in my space? Again this type of spontaneous shit, I don't appreciate!!! I had to move most of my stuff for two days so they can work in that area and I can still be a slave for the next two days for the plantation! And the boss said not for me to get used to it in the office. WTF! Ummm, NO THANK YOU, I'd rather get an office because I get promoted, NOT BY DEFAULT!!!

At the end of the move and the undone work that I needed to attend to, it was 4:45. Dammit, I'm late. YES late! I have got to go home. :). I can't be late on that. All the stress that I had today, if I can have a cupcake with tasty frosting, life would be that much better!!!

Hope everyone had a well organized and better day at work!!!

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Ummm...

I haven't had it for awhile...so delicious...yummy...
If I see the bakery anytime soon, the cupcakes will have no mercy...LOL

So...

I was told I am such a wacko and I don't even know it! What's there to know?! But I know it was said out of love and I accepted. He didn't know any better. I mean I am weird and I can be all wacked out at times but hey who the hell don't. I entertain myself. Its something I do. As long as I don't lose the reality of what my surroundings are, I'm good, I am better than good!

So anyways, I was on the train...I hate it. I was looking around to see if I can find something to entertain myself with. (I promise Enz-ter I would write something) NOT A DAMN THING, instead I saw this guy watching me watching people. How weird was that? How did I even miss him watching me? How creepy was that? I watch people all the times but its creepy being watched! OMFG, WTF DUDE!

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Derailed...

I should be ashamed of myself. Yesterday I wanted all to be about President Obama but i got derailed and bamboozled with all my thoughts. I did try to stay on topic of the day though. I have to give myself some credit, if I don't, who would!

But today, I am back. I can talk about anything I want again although there were no exceptions except I dedicated yesterday's blog to my President. :) I had a little incident this weekend. I wasn't going to talk about it but I am being forced to. I am not going to get into details but I will just talk about what I learned from this. I know that I am not the easiest person to be around but confronting or talking to someone who thinks they are always right is the most difficult thing so I refuse to do it. And as far as I am concerned, it wasn't my fault!

But on the happy note, I am sleepy as ever and have work on my desk and not working again. ;) Talk about derailing... LMAO!

I don't know...

why I started to cry when I was watching CNN this morning for the presidential sworn in. From the beginning 'til the end I shed tears. I am so proud of the President.

Must have been the happy tears...damn, I am emotional! People were there to cheer him on and the love that I felt from them for the president Obama was enormous.

I tried...

to have as rested weekend as I could and for the most part, I did. So rested that I didn't even think updating my blog 'til this morning when I couldn't go to sleep. Did I have lots to write about? Yes! Did I write about them? No! So ladies and gentlemen, yes, yours truly is yet again contemplating right before your eyes.

Since we are on the TRYING subject, I also tried, well that part I don't try much because it comes naturally, to be a good friend to people who are good to me. Most people assume I am not sensitive and they start saying mean thing. I don't want to get into the whole story but I got hung up on last night. I mean I used to hang up on people but it was like 10 years ago. I tried not to do that anymore because I don't want it done to me yet it happened last night. I knew what happened but I truly believe I didn't deserve to be hung up on. Needless to say, I didn't call back.

Why should I? I didn't hang up!!!

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Today...

is the day we have a new leader in our nation. I am excited to come home from work later to see the inauguration. I had a day off yesterday and I watched "YES WE CAN! THE BARACK OBAMA STORY". I was in awe with our president's story. The man has charisma among other things. The way he is with his family, and the people. Every time, I listen to his speech or the way he is with his wife and daughters, the man brings me to my tears.

Am I too emotional or what? But all I know for sure is that I am so excited.

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Contemplating...

is what I do best... Work on the desk??? YES DEFINITELY, but thinking about how to make this blog look more attractive and interesting so I can draw people's interest.
I decided that maybe I will add images and be more creative.

Must Be The Weather...

that I want ROMANCE! It's really funny because I am not looking for it or anything. I just want romance and all that fancy schmancy stuff that comes along with it...

I am starting to forget how to be in a relationship and now I am thinking like a man...being all selfish and stuff. Sorry guys, I wasn't trying to offend you.

I Didn't Know...

I was in the middle of soap opera stars week at Disney World, in Orlando, Florida! Heck, I wasn't aware of it. OMG, shit came down faster than a flush in the toilet bowl.

Let's call this place a "Lime Light"! The reason for calling it because I have never seen such drama queens in my whole life. The same goes for the reason why I said soap opera stars. The place is full of DRAMA!

Well two days ago, at Lime Light, we had a meeting about how things will be running in the operation. So to my shockness, I was pretty much fine with a couple things being changed although I think nothing was really going to change. I saw excited people and unhappy people.

The moral of the story is when people ask for more work, they really don't mean they want more work but to look good on their part and NOT TO TRUST ANYONE!!!

Oh yea, did I mention I'm PISSED off?!

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Different Venues Different Stories...

So I know that this is like my fourth time writing like in a couple hours. Am I overdoing it? HELL NO! I got things to say.

So I got off the train and happy to be on the bus then I can be connected again. So I found myself a seat on the bus. It wasn't packed at all so I was like cool even though I didn't get that one seater by the rear exit! Still I sat by the rear exit and here came this nosy lady from my country asking me bunch of questions. So nosy & annoying. So I answer one out of a hundred question and I was saved by a call. And still I knew she was listening to my conversation and surely enough she will be asking me or answering the questions during my call.

This blog was meant for while on above bus ride but it didn't exactly go that way.

I came out of the house and it's snowing. I felt like making snow angels. It won't be good since I am in my work clothes. ;). Anyways...don't slip & fall.

Have a great day nonetheless...

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Which One?

Is there a difference between kissing & having sex with someone? Of course, there is! Kissing is very intimate and sleeping with someone is less intimate. Or it can well be vice versa. It all depends on the individual...

Speaking of which one, while I'm on the topic, would like to talk about hate, loathe and resentment. Well, hate is pretty powerful word so sometimes I'd rather use dislike or loathe but then there is a RESENTMENT. Of all the words, I would like to use that word. I don't hate, loathe, or dislike, I RESENT HIM!

Months ago like 4 months, I would say I couldn't define my feelings on him or the situation but now they are all clear. I have this resentment towards him. He used to ask me if I hate him or saying things like you hate me, don't you. "No, I don't hate you. I resent you." Now that's the most defined feelings ever! Can you live with that?! And I am not hating. I am just me and this is the way I deal with things. Love it or love it more...it's me!

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Sometimes...

I can be sitting right in front of a whole bunch of work load and I just say to myself, FUNK IT! Yea, I said FUNK! I don't feel like working today. Lately, well most of the times, I have been blogging my ass away from my Blackberry, you know like on the go type of thing. I am not too sure if my addiction is for the blog or the Blackberry. Years ago, I clearly remembered talking crap to my friend about how I don't get BBs and they are retarded. Of course, I wasn't on that shit yet. Now I am so addicted. Can we say KARMA?
Anyways, work versus blog, apparently the blog won hence this blog existed. LOL!

Believe It Or Not...

I went into the Ripley's Believe It Or Not last night like NY Famous Tourists. My cousin & I had a blast in there. At first, I was just supposed to wander around Times Square and wait for my friend like NY Famous Tourists but my cousin called and was willing to come with us.

Earlier in the day, my friend and I made a spontaneous plan to see a movie. Then by the end of the day, since my cousin agreed to come with us, we ended up at Ripley's while waiting. We all saw Seven Pounds. The movie was an okay one. I could have waited for the DVD to come out or the cable. I wasn't too sure how my cousin and friend felt about that. It was sad. We almost shed tears. Don't think for one second that we were heartless. We had teary eyes...that has to count for something.

Anyways this is not to promote Ripley's or Seven Pounds. Just thought I'd share some excitement! :)

It's cold out, stay warm people!

I am having one of those days that I wanted to call in sick before I get up & out of the bed this morning.

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Do me a favor...

I had a weekend full of bliss in many levels. I mean what kind of blissfulness would you want. Snow? Happiness? Sleeplessness? (All types of blissfulness) Giants lost but what the hey! Now back to Monday and not a care in the world and as far as I'm concerned I am still happy even its Monday and all. of course sleepy but happy. The sleepiness will never go away in my world.

I stayed up until 1:30 AGAIN! I think I'm on mission of self destruction. It has got to be. Who else would do it to themselves knowing MONDAY is the first day of the work week. I am hoping there is someone just like me out there crazy enough to stay up. I was up catching up on my shows, bonding with my DVR (the best thing they can ever invent after VCRs) so to speak!

I hope everyone had a blissful weekend...

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So...

I came home last night and I didn't feel well so I went straight to sleep. It was like around 6:30 pm. I had plans to go out but I wasn't feeling well. Some might say I live a granny life but who cares. It's my life and I live as I please. Then I woke up so early this morning with a migraine. I hate those. They don't go away easily. I still don't know how to get rid of them. And I couldn't go back to sleep. But I had the best sleep ever...and that's how my weekend started!

SWEET!

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Boys...

...will always be boys. So when I address the guy, I call him a boy. I really don't want to talk about boys but I felt like starting this blog with that. Once again, I am on the E train. I am so tired and sleepy. I had work to do at work today and I did everything that I needed to get it done. You would think that once I get swing of things, I would be up and about. No not me. I did my work half asleep half awake. Thank goodness for AIM at work where I can touch base with outside world. And I thank everyone of those people who keep my days shorter at work.

So I sat and worked and contemplated on whether if I should go out tonight. I don't want to and I seriously think this whole week is taking a toll on me. I just want to go home and get some zzz. I think that's what I'll do.

Hope everyone have a great weekend...

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The Guy On The Bus...

He has a girl in his arm and kissing her and said "yes, cross my heart" and he did that cross my heart shit with his finger on his right side of the chest. Last time I checked, the heart is on the left side, RIGHT? If only I could take a picture and post that but I don't want to be seem stalkish in public. ;)

I love sharing my stories...as I take my ass home. :)

Good Night All

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If...

If you ever have a choice between sticking to normal routine or change it up as life throws you different curve balls on daily basis, what would you do?

For me, it depends on the situation. There are things I just do normally because I don't want to be noticed. Don't get me wrong, I am an only child so I LOVE attention. I see nothing wrong with that. But sometimes it's good to change it up and surprise the crap out of people or lose them. ;)

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All Things...

Actually I should say all good things must come to an end. Well, I didn't actually say that. Its a quote that I have heard before. I walk my path with no fear and no regrets but sometimes I go by slow and get worried when I feel something good is happening. I don't want it to end. But luckily, when things end in my life, its just because they are THAT bad. So I don't mind ending anything.

Off the topic, there were mice at my job. WTF! I mean I feel like I work in third world country. (Please take no offense in this, I, myself, came from the third world country) I got mosquitoes and mice. So mosquitoes get their feast on my juicy meat while the mices eat away all my snacks away. I had to throw out all my shit from the cabinets today. I was pissed but its okay because maybe they were hungry. And on top of it, the boss said NO EXTERMINATOR! Now really? You can call them. They are all over the place in yellow pages. Hell we live in NY. There is nothing we don't have. Anyways, so we got mouse traps. I am afraid to go into work tomorrow morning and find these little suckers I have been feeding for days are stuck on traps.

On the happy note, there might be a possible date on Friday for yours truly... ;)

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You Own My Heart...

Relationships are funny. It's a hard work and you have to keep working at it. They don't come easy as they seem. Its like the hardest unpaid job there is. Meanwhile, there will be a "he" that wants a break or a "she" that wants some space.

I don't get those things and I don't believe in those things just like I don't believe in dating. I have a hard time dealing the guy would be out with me one night and he will be or even I will be out with another person. So according to me, which you may agree or not agree, everyone is entitled to their opinions, needing space and taking breaks means you want to go out there and do your shit and then come back with no guilt! So after all that said, I might not be able to bank roll anyone I am with but they own my heart if they find a way in and I won't be feeding any bullshit and I don't want to hear it either!

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What Was I Thinking?!

So I had a serious case of mondays since last night. Last night, knowing I have to wake up at 5:30 in the morning, I still stayed up late and went to sleep at 2:30 AM. So of course, I ran around at work like a robot. I didn't even take my lunch but I made a quick run to Duane Reade. It was around 3 PM so I was thinking it would be an in and out thing. Little did I know, there was a long line to Mount Vernon, okay not really to there but I exaggerated a little. So yes, there was a long line for me to get a pack of sunflower seeds for the birds, okay it was for me, and 24 pack of Poland Spring water. So I looked around to see if they would open up another register. And they didn't and finally there was a guy who came and stood in front of the register. I looked and asked if he was open and he said yes so I was right in front of his register in a hot second. I was thinking this is great it will be fast since the water was getting heavier. He was so slow and I was still okay with that because once upon a time way way back in the days, I was on the register although I didn't find myself that slow. Any who, so the receipt was for $7.88. I gave the man 20 dollars. I was expecting $10.12 back but guess what, it took him 5 minutes to give me back a 10, 2 single dollars and change. WTF, Dude!

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Ahhh...Weekend Bliss

I love it when friday nights come. I look forward to my weekends like that is the last weekend I will have for the rest of my life. I am sure everyone feels the same but I treasure my weekends since there is no mornings, noons and nights as far as I'm concerned. I do as I please.

With that said, when I get calls or when I have to do something when the weekend comes, I get so mad like someone took my last coke. Oh, and speaking of coke, I thought of it and I think that I shouldn't go cold turkey on it. I love it so much that I know its not going to be as easy as I thought it would be. One day at a time and one step after another. Rome wasn't built in one day and Sandhi surely is not built to cut off coke. Well maybe but I sometimes like to procrastinate on shit and this can be one of those things.

I didn't do much today but I am tired from this past two weeks.

Til' tomorrow...

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What A Day!

Back at work today and I barely made it thru the day with 2 hours of sleep to hold me down. But yours truly MADE it! Woohoo!!! Anyways, I was kind of feeling effy on having some drinks with my co workers on so many levels. For one, my cousin from out of town is here, then there was that 2 hours of sleep the night before and then some of co workers are not talking to each other. I really don't feel like being in the middle of awkwardness. But at the end of the day, I find myself being at the bar. (disappointed but I wanted to get some drinks, lol and had a great time after all.).

So the year is going so far so good. Until I turned the phone on and the ex e mailed me. Okay, moving on! Exes will be the ex where they should be left behind!



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Change!

Today, I decided to redo my blog and change it to more sassy side of mine. Same but more grown up and meaningful things...

And I start to write notes on facebook also...

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