Trying to find myself...

Like Ciara's song "Promise", I have been single and I am fine with it. But I want to be able to find that special someone. I know I am ready. I don't want to deal with anyone's bullshit. Nevertheless I see the past and people who can't deliver what I want, staying in my life. I need to get rid of all these negativities which won't allow me to grow. For a person who went through enough, I seriously, seriously, don't think I am asking alot from anyone.

I am trying to be a better person also by trying to control my temper. But seems that it is not working. Still trying to find a way.

Why me?!

Sometimes I feel like I am the only one who can understand me. I mean ofcourse that is understatement in many sense. For instant, I went on a dinner date on Monday night and came back all sad and started to cry on Tuesday. I don't know how to explain that sense of sadness or where it came from but I know it existed and it was real.