Being Ghetto Does NOT Equal Being Real!!!

I know I am a bit late but here are my thoughts with BET Awards 2010 : Who Wore What segment. The show was hosted by The always fashionable, Fonzworth Bentley, along with a star-studded panel to include: Actress Vivica Fox, Designer and Model, Vanessa Simmons and last but not least Fashion Expert, Paul Wharton. I loved most of the outfits on the celebs meaning like 85%. The thing that bothered me the most within that 30 minutes was Ms. Fox. She was the only person who was all ghetto and was annoying the crap out of me. Everyone on the panel was classy but not Ms. Fox. She must have thought her being ghetto was being real. Ms. Fox should have carried herself with some class with the rest of the panel. But for the rest of the panel, they hosted the show with class and poise. Bravo! And for Ms. Fox, get you some class, how about that!

Friends or Foes or Frenermies?

Each and everyday, I am figuring things and people out more and more. It's blessing to know how and what the nature of things and people yet it's sad that I am finding myself surrounded with bunch of fakes and foes. If one proclaims as my enemy, at least, I know how to proceed, but now I have enemies amongst friends and sometimes it's so tiring to differentiate between the two. And when I say I surround myself, it doesn't mean I literally surround myself. I have no choice. I know you'd be thinking everyone has a choice. Yes, I totally agree. But I have no choice if I have to be at a certain place like work force or school or social gatherings or family environments.

Life is nothing but a big lesson to learn. I can benefit from it when and if I learn from my daily experience.

It's been awhile

I don't remember the last time I sat down and update my blog. The surgery went well. But the aftermath is not so good. I am still dealing with problems and I don't like it. One good thing is that I am back at work. Today makes it my second complete week back at work.
I need to get back to swing of things. School is in session for me for the summer. I just need to bang this out and ride this into the sunset.

That's it for now. My a year anniversary is almost here by the end of this month. Good to know I am not spreading myself out there but ... Ha!

Happy For Me???

Dear All,

As some of you may know (or may not), I have been proposed several times for legal papers. So this morning I was walking to work and the limo was pulled up and a beautiful Italian man stepped out of the limo, I was offered $50k ($35K when I signed on and $15K when he gets his papers), the keys to a brand new condo/loft rent free in NYC, and the keys to a 2011 Range Rover if I would marry him.

So after carefully consideration, I just have one thing to say…EVERYONE’s INVITED TO THE WEDDING; SEE YOU IN VEGAS IN JULY!!!













APRIL FOOLS!!! oh well...I tried!

Finally...

So yes...I got my baby today. My new found love but the old will not be forgotten. It took me exactly 4 hours to get the laptop up and running but it's all worth it. I love it. I had an issue with a wireless network connection. But like I said I spent my time with the rep from DELL and Verizon for 4 hours and now KABOOM... I AM IN LOVE. This is so beautiful inside and out. I need a name for this...

GREAT NEWS!!!

... so for the longest time, I have been dealing with my old laptop which takes forever to get started, my dad's laptop and my cousin's actually all my cousins. ::shame shame:: I finally bought my own. I am happy about it...actually EXCITED!!! The only suck part about is the delivery date. It's in mid March. I wish I can get it earlier than that. Anyways...why did I prolong this long??? I have a hard time parting with my old laptop and wasn't too sure what to get. But finally I decided to go with good ole DELL where I got my first laptop. So of course just like any other place, they take money first but the product later. LMAO. It's all good.

The little piece of machinery makes me happy but it put a whole in my pocket. But I am still smiling...at least that's what I keep telling myself.

The Doc said NOT YET...

... the doctor called and he said he won't operate on me because my blood count is very low like a 7 low ... UGH!!! I was already psyched for the surgery... well ... I was ready mentally. But now I have to wait 'til the blood count goes up to where the normal level which should be at 11-15. So now I need IRON. Grrrr!

Flipping the Script!

...So I have been having trouble with a certain someone at work because they are having a hard time adjusting to "OUR" work culture. Tomorrow is my last day here at work before my surgery. I was told to show him what I do so I tried doing that since last week and all he dad was give me grief. So finally I told him that I need him to do the whole work of it and that if he has any problems he can take it to the upper management. Guess what...he did the work that he HAD to, THE WHOLE NINE YARD. I knew he was playing a different role between the upper management and I. Anyways...here is what really got him. He thought I was going to give him grief and the 'TUDE. Oh no, no sir...I gave him nothing but sweetness...flip the script on the old boy and killed him with the kindness...

YES!...Today I smiled upon myself and was proud of myself for handling things very well. Taking care of business with one kindness at a time. LOL...he didn't know how to respond to that. Poor him.

Being BETTER...

... Once in a while, I would like to think that I am doing and being better than I was in 2009. And I do see the improvement. I like what I'm seeing and I am proud of myself. It's all part of being a grown up. There is more to improve in some areas but ROME WASN'T BUILT IN ONE DAY so I will give myself a break.

Where Does It Leave Me?...

For the past week, I have been a good family member and friend more than the usual if not more. I realized where it gets me in the end...NOWHERE!

I was there for my cousin where I felt that all his friends were using him and then making fun of him behind his back. And I wasn't the only one who felt that way. His sister saw things that I saw and felt the same way. But I let it go on and let him know what was happening. Maybe he might not be aware of what was happening behind his back. Then he told me that he spoke to them about it. Then I saw more disturbing things have said about him after he had spoke to them about it. So I said nicely to the people who were involved that they should stop saying mean things. But then the reply from them was way more harsh than the situation at hand. So I spoke on it to my cousin and his reply was to just ignore them. So I felt that I was standing by him and thinking I was doing the right thing but when it comes down to it, he left me out cold. He sided with his friends who were talking behind his back. ::SMH::

So what I learned from all that was I can be there for people but that would be the last time I stick my neck out for people who don't want to be saved from anything. I am learning to just listen to them and let go...and not to make it my burden. As long as I am there to listen when they need to be heard or not, I think it would be enough. I guess it will be me being there for them without putting myself out there.

And for the happy thought for me...I am dedicating this hump day to T.I. for looking so scrumptious.

They can call me a drifter...TODAY!

...My mind is racing with 10 gazillion things and I can't pin point on anything particular. Days like this make me really upset and just make me want to crawl in my bed and be held. I am sitting here trying to work and I am drifting away. I haven't felt like that in awhile. So much I want to write about and I can't seem to form sentences.

WHAT GIVES!

Love Jones

Sitting here and thinking about "LOVE JONES". Classic! O I love that movie.

Nina Mosley: You always want what you want when you want it. Why is everything so urgent with you?
Darius Lovehall: Let me tell you somethin'. This here, right now, at this very moment, is all that matters to me. I love you. That's urgent like a motherfucker.

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Darius Lovehall: Say, baby... can I be Your slave? I've got to admit girl you're the shit girl... and I'm digging you like a grave. Now, do they call you Daughter to the Spinning Pulsar... or maybe Queen of 10,000 moons? Sister to the Distant yet Rising Star? Is your name Yemaya? Oh, hell no. Its got to be Oshun. Oooh, is that a smile me put on your face, child... wide as a field of jasmine and clover? Talk that talk, honey. Walk that walk, money. High on legs that'll spite Jehovah. Shit. Who am I? It's not important. But me they call me brother to the night. And right now... I'm the blues in your left thigh... trying to become the funk in your right. Who am I? I'll be whoever you say? But right now I'm the sight-raped hunter... blindly pursuing you as my prey. And I just want to give you injections... of sublime erections... and get you to dance to my rhythm... make you dream archetypes... of black angels in flight... upon wings of distorted, contorted... metaphoric jizm. Come on slim. Fuck your man. I ain't worried about him. It's you who I want to step to my scene. 'cause rather the deal with the fallacy... of this dry-ass reality... I'd rather dance and romance your sweet ass in a wet dream. Who am I? Well, they call me Brother to the night. And right now I'm the blues in your left thigh... trying to become the funk in your right. Is that all right?

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I can't find one of the quote that I am looking for but these will do... =)

Catching up with ME...

...As my first post of 2010... I'm already 6 days late... well they say...better late than never so I'm taking that route.

I was thankful I got to VA early to ring in the New Year with the family. I was ready to let go of 2009 and so looking forward to this year. I stayed there for 2 nights and 3 days but I felt it was a short trip. I felt rushed. I didn't get to do anything much. I got back to NY and I had a fever. It lasted for a night and 2 days but I was left with this horrible cold, i.e. cough and constant sneeze. That basically took my workout days away. I want to go back to the gym but I couldn't possibly do that to people at the gym. Besides they would kill me for going in there to spread my germs and I don't feel like being stuck with a nickname "SWINEY". But since the fever broke, I have been at work every single day since the New Year. ::smdh:: I am still feeling feverish from time to time but I guess I won't die from it. I have never done so much of nose blowing in my whole life than ever... and the skin on tip of my nose is dry and peeling off. NOT SO SEXY! =(

I finally caught up with all the blogs that I read on daily. I guess, starting from tomorrow I will be back on the regular program. So far the year has been positive for me, except for this little glitch called a COLD.

Something to look forward to this Saturday... A DENTAL APPOINTMENT. UGH! I just don't like any kind of visitations to any kind of doctors.

I hope everyone is having positive energy and good vibe this year so far...