Disappointment

I am starting to think my friend is right about me. I am a Jellyfish...wishy washy and no backbone (only in a certain cases). I know I got a backbone. It's just that sometimes...I get pulled back into things...unhealthy things. And the pull is bigger than I am most of the times and I get sucked in. But to reassure to those who care, I am trying my best but it is very hard. There is a saying for it. I am not too sure exactly what it is but it goes something like "Don't fight the current, go with the flow!" Ha!

Excuse me while I dismiss you out of my life :)

Just to start, I think this mobile blog thing for me is way better than when I can do it in front of the computer. I mean my thoughts are always on the run so it's cool for me to be able to put it on here when it strikes. With that said, here it goes...

People come in and out of your life daily one way or another. Some might have impact on you and some, you won't even know if they even existed. This is what my thought on that. If you feel that someone is useless in your life, not that you are using them or anything, drop them. Why have them in your life? No one is doing the survey or there is no popularity contest here! What I mean by useless is meaning if they don't even defeat the purpose of being what they are supposed to be, why bother! The same concept goes to everything in life. For instance, if you buy something that you don't need but it was on sale, (my mom does it a lot, but I love her), and you don't use it within 6 months, you will never use and you probably don't need it. Got my drift!!!



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OMG!

The weather is changing like we are in winter wonderland. WTH! The only problem I have is that I have to wait for the bus and the winds blows right in my face. Sometimes I wish I still drive to work and my job is like 5 minutes away. This an hour and a half commute everyday is killing me. But I have to be thankful I have somewhere to commute every morning on weekdays, right! So on days like this, I tell myself to suck it up and "Be a Man!, Do the right thing!" And move on!!!

And let's talk about the infamous bus and train rides. I know its a public transportation but there is always some bitch, yes I said it, some bitch thinking she owns the bus or the train and she wants to push upon me. And the EMILY in me comes out early in the morning. Why must you do this to me people? Why don't you stay in your corner and I don't have to get UGLY!!!



But the rest of you out there, enjoy your day!!!

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Saying goodbye to a wonderful memory that will last forever...

It's been awhile since I've written. I have many things to write about but wasn't too sure how to word it. The last thing I want to do is make the words come out all scattered (just like the way I think, LOL).

Today, I feel the need to say goodbye to this wonderful part of my life. I am sad about it but there is not need for me to hang onto. Its always good to hold onto the memories that are good for your soul but I don't think holding onto this memory is good for me. I can't seem to let go of this person who has crossed my path. I tried many times and it keeps pulling me back. So this is kind of like my eulogy of my feelings for that individual. If I can't let go, I can't move on. Then I will be the only one who is stuck in the past. He does seems to be fine and moving on but I keep replaying things in my head and going back to what ifs.

So now I am saying goodbye to all the feelings that I have. I need to move on and I have to move on. It's not healthy for me. No more what ifs!!!

Where is Waldo?

Okay, I haven't been writing for awhile. Not that someone is literally waiting for me to put up something. Recently, I read blogs that my friend wrote and he put me to shame about what I was writing. I mean, he is good. I never knew he thinks so deeply and it goes beyond my expectations but DAMN, I have to give him credit, HE IS GOOD.

Anyways, I went out to eat with a friend of mine last night. And the next thing we realized there was a guy a table away from us started to talk with his mouth full at first and we wondered where his manners were. Then I realized that he didn't have any food in his mouth and that was just the way he speaks. Geez, do it quietly if you speak that way. That was just plain disgusting.

And then a couple minutes later, someone's ass was ringing and vibrating. It was saying your table was ready and please return the device to the host. Then I realized that they were waiting for a restaurant to seat them but they were dining at the different place already.

OMFG!

Who cares what you didn't do, could have done, should've done. It's what you do now and from now on that really matters.

Sometimes, in life, I think people cry over spilled milk. This is my take on it. I mean you can learn and definitely take notes on mistakes that you have done as a life lesson but there is no crying over it. You pick yourself up and go and don't make the same mistake again.

I , for one, have done my fair and share of mistakes. But do I regret them? No not really. I am a fool, aren't I? I don't think so. Sometimes, that's how I learn from my mistakes. Life is a whole experience thing. I can learn from it and move on.

But I know most people, I have to say most because it is most amount that I know in my life, I know still living in that should have, would have, could have world. They can get out of it but they won't. And I still don't understand why. But I know most common thing everyone would say to me, "Your not in the situation so it's easy for you to say!" Hell no. I am not that old but I am not that young either. You learn and grow from your mistakes. You can't live with them. Move on!!!

When did it all change?

Okay, last week, it was still warm and all of the sudden the freakin weather got cold. I am not ready yet. *sobbing* It's so cold outside. *brrrr* I don't even know where my gloves are. :(

I came to work and I put my little space heater on and I am all great but once I walk away from my desk, I know there is a cold wind waiting for my tropical ass. I can be here forever and I don't think I'll ever be used to the cold. I just close my eyes and wish I am on some island catching rays.

I got an offer that I cannot refuse...well alright, I can refuse, but for me to do that, I am not too sure if I gain or loose something out of it. The thing is that can i do it. That's something I should ponder!!!

Good, Fast, & Cheap

If you want something good and fast, it can't be cheap. If you get something fast and cheap, it won't be good. But I bet you I can get something good, fast and cheap... TRUST ME...

I love that three word in a triangle. I think it applies to many things.

Do we get wiser as we get older or we just get sillier?

As we go through life, I sometimes think people get crazier and crazier. I would think that people show get wiser with all the experiences we all go through in life but not an ounce of chance. I guess it cannot be done to everyone. As long a s I can help myself, I am grateful on my personal growth.

A couple of days has been so crazy for me. It was so bad last night. I was so much in pain and I don't know what to do. But then, the sun rise dawned on me and I am a-OK again. Anyways...I am better today. Somehow, I want my palms read immediately!!! ASAP!!!