Being Ghetto Does NOT Equal Being Real!!!

I know I am a bit late but here are my thoughts with BET Awards 2010 : Who Wore What segment. The show was hosted by The always fashionable, Fonzworth Bentley, along with a star-studded panel to include: Actress Vivica Fox, Designer and Model, Vanessa Simmons and last but not least Fashion Expert, Paul Wharton. I loved most of the outfits on the celebs meaning like 85%. The thing that bothered me the most within that 30 minutes was Ms. Fox. She was the only person who was all ghetto and was annoying the crap out of me. Everyone on the panel was classy but not Ms. Fox. She must have thought her being ghetto was being real. Ms. Fox should have carried herself with some class with the rest of the panel. But for the rest of the panel, they hosted the show with class and poise. Bravo! And for Ms. Fox, get you some class, how about that!

Friends or Foes or Frenermies?

Each and everyday, I am figuring things and people out more and more. It's blessing to know how and what the nature of things and people yet it's sad that I am finding myself surrounded with bunch of fakes and foes. If one proclaims as my enemy, at least, I know how to proceed, but now I have enemies amongst friends and sometimes it's so tiring to differentiate between the two. And when I say I surround myself, it doesn't mean I literally surround myself. I have no choice. I know you'd be thinking everyone has a choice. Yes, I totally agree. But I have no choice if I have to be at a certain place like work force or school or social gatherings or family environments.

Life is nothing but a big lesson to learn. I can benefit from it when and if I learn from my daily experience.

It's been awhile

I don't remember the last time I sat down and update my blog. The surgery went well. But the aftermath is not so good. I am still dealing with problems and I don't like it. One good thing is that I am back at work. Today makes it my second complete week back at work.
I need to get back to swing of things. School is in session for me for the summer. I just need to bang this out and ride this into the sunset.

That's it for now. My a year anniversary is almost here by the end of this month. Good to know I am not spreading myself out there but ... Ha!

Happy For Me???

Dear All,

As some of you may know (or may not), I have been proposed several times for legal papers. So this morning I was walking to work and the limo was pulled up and a beautiful Italian man stepped out of the limo, I was offered $50k ($35K when I signed on and $15K when he gets his papers), the keys to a brand new condo/loft rent free in NYC, and the keys to a 2011 Range Rover if I would marry him.

So after carefully consideration, I just have one thing to say…EVERYONE’s INVITED TO THE WEDDING; SEE YOU IN VEGAS IN JULY!!!













APRIL FOOLS!!! oh well...I tried!

Finally...

So yes...I got my baby today. My new found love but the old will not be forgotten. It took me exactly 4 hours to get the laptop up and running but it's all worth it. I love it. I had an issue with a wireless network connection. But like I said I spent my time with the rep from DELL and Verizon for 4 hours and now KABOOM... I AM IN LOVE. This is so beautiful inside and out. I need a name for this...

GREAT NEWS!!!

... so for the longest time, I have been dealing with my old laptop which takes forever to get started, my dad's laptop and my cousin's actually all my cousins. ::shame shame:: I finally bought my own. I am happy about it...actually EXCITED!!! The only suck part about is the delivery date. It's in mid March. I wish I can get it earlier than that. Anyways...why did I prolong this long??? I have a hard time parting with my old laptop and wasn't too sure what to get. But finally I decided to go with good ole DELL where I got my first laptop. So of course just like any other place, they take money first but the product later. LMAO. It's all good.

The little piece of machinery makes me happy but it put a whole in my pocket. But I am still smiling...at least that's what I keep telling myself.

The Doc said NOT YET...

... the doctor called and he said he won't operate on me because my blood count is very low like a 7 low ... UGH!!! I was already psyched for the surgery... well ... I was ready mentally. But now I have to wait 'til the blood count goes up to where the normal level which should be at 11-15. So now I need IRON. Grrrr!

Flipping the Script!

...So I have been having trouble with a certain someone at work because they are having a hard time adjusting to "OUR" work culture. Tomorrow is my last day here at work before my surgery. I was told to show him what I do so I tried doing that since last week and all he dad was give me grief. So finally I told him that I need him to do the whole work of it and that if he has any problems he can take it to the upper management. Guess what...he did the work that he HAD to, THE WHOLE NINE YARD. I knew he was playing a different role between the upper management and I. Anyways...here is what really got him. He thought I was going to give him grief and the 'TUDE. Oh no, no sir...I gave him nothing but sweetness...flip the script on the old boy and killed him with the kindness...

YES!...Today I smiled upon myself and was proud of myself for handling things very well. Taking care of business with one kindness at a time. LOL...he didn't know how to respond to that. Poor him.

Being BETTER...

... Once in a while, I would like to think that I am doing and being better than I was in 2009. And I do see the improvement. I like what I'm seeing and I am proud of myself. It's all part of being a grown up. There is more to improve in some areas but ROME WASN'T BUILT IN ONE DAY so I will give myself a break.

Where Does It Leave Me?...

For the past week, I have been a good family member and friend more than the usual if not more. I realized where it gets me in the end...NOWHERE!

I was there for my cousin where I felt that all his friends were using him and then making fun of him behind his back. And I wasn't the only one who felt that way. His sister saw things that I saw and felt the same way. But I let it go on and let him know what was happening. Maybe he might not be aware of what was happening behind his back. Then he told me that he spoke to them about it. Then I saw more disturbing things have said about him after he had spoke to them about it. So I said nicely to the people who were involved that they should stop saying mean things. But then the reply from them was way more harsh than the situation at hand. So I spoke on it to my cousin and his reply was to just ignore them. So I felt that I was standing by him and thinking I was doing the right thing but when it comes down to it, he left me out cold. He sided with his friends who were talking behind his back. ::SMH::

So what I learned from all that was I can be there for people but that would be the last time I stick my neck out for people who don't want to be saved from anything. I am learning to just listen to them and let go...and not to make it my burden. As long as I am there to listen when they need to be heard or not, I think it would be enough. I guess it will be me being there for them without putting myself out there.

And for the happy thought for me...I am dedicating this hump day to T.I. for looking so scrumptious.

They can call me a drifter...TODAY!

...My mind is racing with 10 gazillion things and I can't pin point on anything particular. Days like this make me really upset and just make me want to crawl in my bed and be held. I am sitting here trying to work and I am drifting away. I haven't felt like that in awhile. So much I want to write about and I can't seem to form sentences.

WHAT GIVES!

Love Jones

Sitting here and thinking about "LOVE JONES". Classic! O I love that movie.

Nina Mosley: You always want what you want when you want it. Why is everything so urgent with you?
Darius Lovehall: Let me tell you somethin'. This here, right now, at this very moment, is all that matters to me. I love you. That's urgent like a motherfucker.

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Darius Lovehall: Say, baby... can I be Your slave? I've got to admit girl you're the shit girl... and I'm digging you like a grave. Now, do they call you Daughter to the Spinning Pulsar... or maybe Queen of 10,000 moons? Sister to the Distant yet Rising Star? Is your name Yemaya? Oh, hell no. Its got to be Oshun. Oooh, is that a smile me put on your face, child... wide as a field of jasmine and clover? Talk that talk, honey. Walk that walk, money. High on legs that'll spite Jehovah. Shit. Who am I? It's not important. But me they call me brother to the night. And right now... I'm the blues in your left thigh... trying to become the funk in your right. Who am I? I'll be whoever you say? But right now I'm the sight-raped hunter... blindly pursuing you as my prey. And I just want to give you injections... of sublime erections... and get you to dance to my rhythm... make you dream archetypes... of black angels in flight... upon wings of distorted, contorted... metaphoric jizm. Come on slim. Fuck your man. I ain't worried about him. It's you who I want to step to my scene. 'cause rather the deal with the fallacy... of this dry-ass reality... I'd rather dance and romance your sweet ass in a wet dream. Who am I? Well, they call me Brother to the night. And right now I'm the blues in your left thigh... trying to become the funk in your right. Is that all right?

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I can't find one of the quote that I am looking for but these will do... =)

Catching up with ME...

...As my first post of 2010... I'm already 6 days late... well they say...better late than never so I'm taking that route.

I was thankful I got to VA early to ring in the New Year with the family. I was ready to let go of 2009 and so looking forward to this year. I stayed there for 2 nights and 3 days but I felt it was a short trip. I felt rushed. I didn't get to do anything much. I got back to NY and I had a fever. It lasted for a night and 2 days but I was left with this horrible cold, i.e. cough and constant sneeze. That basically took my workout days away. I want to go back to the gym but I couldn't possibly do that to people at the gym. Besides they would kill me for going in there to spread my germs and I don't feel like being stuck with a nickname "SWINEY". But since the fever broke, I have been at work every single day since the New Year. ::smdh:: I am still feeling feverish from time to time but I guess I won't die from it. I have never done so much of nose blowing in my whole life than ever... and the skin on tip of my nose is dry and peeling off. NOT SO SEXY! =(

I finally caught up with all the blogs that I read on daily. I guess, starting from tomorrow I will be back on the regular program. So far the year has been positive for me, except for this little glitch called a COLD.

Something to look forward to this Saturday... A DENTAL APPOINTMENT. UGH! I just don't like any kind of visitations to any kind of doctors.

I hope everyone is having positive energy and good vibe this year so far...

Goodbye 2009 & Welcome 2010...

Have a happy, healthy and safe new year to all of you...

Just wanted to send you a little wish before I sign off...maybe while I am in the car if I am not too sleepy, I will blog more...

See you all next year....

So tiring sometimes...

...with all that, sometimes it's so hard to locate a person. FML!

Wheels are turning...

...I did lots of thinking on many topics this weekend. I thought about the friendships I gained and lost and recover, & what my part take in all the situations, my progress in every aspect of my life and how I can still improve and become a better woman. I am one of those who is loyal and stick with you 'til the end when I get the same responses in return. I know everyone is not perfect but I come damn closed...lol...kidding. Well...I have my flaws and I think to become a better person, the first step is to realize what your flaws are and to be able to make changes from them, only if one wants to, of course.

On a friendship level...

I know I can be the best damn friend anyone can ask for but most of the times, I find myself pulling back because of the past demon haunts me in the most miserable way. I am quite certain there is fault in both parties when it comes to all kinds of relationships but I've come across pretty messed up individuals in my life. And I know it's not the end of it yet. I will meet more of them I am sure of it. The important thing is that how I handle myself with them. And I truly appreciate everyone I met through all sorts of portals. They have been very inspirational and bring positivity to my daily life. I still do very much appreciate and love the constant ones who are in my life to cheer me on and let me have it when I deserve it. Oh and I realize I have lots of frenemies and I can't do anything but love them because they motivate me in a sick way.

On personal level...

School ~ I need to get to my thesis like yesteryear. I know I have talked about it many times on several occasions and I am still contemplating over nothing. UGH! I hate myself for it but I know that has to change immediately.

Work ~ I have made my 3 year mark at my job and I have learned a lot from it.

Home ~ I love my home life and I love my family. PERIOD!

Personality ~ I am short tempered and have no patience but if I didn't, it wouldn't be ME. =)

...okay so this post might sound like as if I have won an Oscar and thanking people but it just is what I was reflecting on this past weekend. Holidays make me all mushy and one emotional mess. Gotta love it.

I hope everyone had the best holiday with your loved ones.

Happy Holidays All...

... just wanted to wish all of you to have happy holidays with your loved ones and to send warm wishes your way ...

... hope you get all the gifts that you wanted from SANTA ...

So far I am having a very nice holiday with family and friends. I love all the wishes and cards that I got. I feel loved by all. I am grateful to have people who love me.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS...and do not take things/people for granted.

Smiles all around...

I baked sugar cookies last night for my coworkers and brought them to work today...the end results...THEY LOVE IT. =)

Fools that took people's money without shoveling

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That's what I'm talking about...

Last night, after work, I felt great being on treadmill and in class. I felt every part of my muscles and I am feeling it now. LOL. I am getting things back in the swing of it. And the next thing I need to get the step on is on my THESIS. I need to focus.

It's cold as ice out today and I hope everyone is warm. I'd rather this weather more than the rain and snow. But fluffy snow is okay.

It's ON!!!

Today is the first day back to the gym. As Borat would say, "I'm EXCITE!!!" lol... We shall see. Yesssir. I can't wait to be on treadmill and in a Latin Impact class. It's kind of sad because I was looking at the schedule and I can only catch that class on Tuesday. =( Anyways...let me just concentrate on the happiness that I WILL BE BACK IN THE GYM. YES!!!! I want to be looking SLAMMIN' by April but if it happens earlier than that who am I to argue with that. =)

Sometimes...people are...

...and that is all I have to say.

Happy 35th!!!

...to the best parents I could ever asked for... I love you May May and Daddy.

Weekend Recollection 12/5 - 12/6

Saturday...

I had to get up early to take my mom to Brooklyn monastery. Then headed back home just in time to meet up with Shonda for long over due catch up time. We went to the gym first so I can get my gym affairs in order. I had to unfreeze my account and she wanted to join. After that we went to Roosevelt Field Mall to look at things. We had our eyes make over at the MAC counter and left to Red Lobster for dinner. We had a great catch up time. I haven't seen her since March. I will be seeing her more since we will be at the same gym.

Sunday...

My parents invited me out to have lunch with them for their anniversary. We went to this Thai Restaurant...it was so delicious. We had a great time.

Overall, it was a great weekend. I am happy I did everything I love. I know I wasn't going to do the weekend recollections anymore but I didn't get to blog on the actual day and I didn't want to miss blogging the moments that I enjoyed. I hope everyone enjoyed their weekend.

I've decided!!!

I think I am going to either write daily or not write at all. I don't want to do the weekend thing anymore. I sometimes don't do anything exciting for me to write about so why write something when there's nothing happening. So I will only write when the writing flow comes through on top of my cabeza to the tip of my fingers. ;-)

Tiger Woods...

...I just wish people would stop talking about this. I don't condone what he did and it is unacceptable in my book but it sure is annoying to hear or read. Oh my, let me stop writing about it. Does anyone realize the troops will be sent overseas???

When Sadness & Madness collide...

....there is a RANDOMNESS!

~ I wish I dream about my grandmother so I can see her one last time again...my cousin and mom dreamed about her, and now they make me feel like grandma doesn't appear in my dreams because she is upset that I didn't get to see her before she passed. Last time I saw her was in 2003 and she passed in 2007.

~ Work is actually having Christmas party this year. We skipped last year so I wasn't expecting this year at all.

~ I need a change and I am actually going through the process right now. Revamping myself for 2010.

~ 15th can't come soon enough. It's a back to the gym day, pay day and anything and everything else day. LOL!

~ I hated that my dad was asking me where I was last night to pick me up and I couldn't tell where I was because I had no idea which way Jamaica Avenue was located and he didn't know where Jamaica Hospital was. Both of us didn't know where we were. That was pure and full throttle frustration for me. FAILED!!! BTW, that hospital was the most unorganized and ghetto place I have ever seen in hospital. I was horrified.

~ People must think I entertain DRAMA because even when I am running the other direction, they follow. I must have entertained it when I was much younger but not anymore.

~ I am starting to wonder why I have FaceBook and twitter accounts. They create problems.

~ I really can't stand people who portray themselves for what they are not. Now I feel like it's all a front.

~ I know that I am being judged from my blog but whatever. I don't think my blog can define me as a whole.

~ When all things else failed, I will still and always have my family.

~ After thoughts after thoughts last night, I told myself I am not going to let people take advantage of me and my kindness, and won't let things bother me.

I hope everyone is having a great day in this FORKS weather.

Unexpected...

...yesterday was the last day of November in 2009. A friend of mine from the past called and she and I went to have dinner and drinks. So it kind of took my blues away. I haven't seen her in years. I enjoyed my night out even though it was on Monday...living dangerously, I know. LOL.

I can't believe we are in the last month of the year. Where did the time go? I got plans for 2010. Everything is in process. I can't wait for everything to fall into places.

Weekend Recollections 11/28 - 11/29

Saturday...

The whole day was not productive at all. But I guess I knew that since I got up. I just needed one of those days. I was lazy and fully rested.

Sunday...

I got up and cleaned my room. I did all the laundry and took a shower and got ready for work. I couldn't believe I was preparing for work. LOL. I was feeling emotional and a bit down. I guess it could happen when I started thinking about things.

I hope everyone had a great weekend.

I hate being asked...

"are you seeing anyone?"...

Well...you know that's the question that I get whenever I go around the family or people that I haven't seen or spoken to in ages. "Yes, I am fine...How are you?" ::smh::

Yesterday was thanksgiving day. I had a day off, Woohoo!!! But I am at work today. ::frown:: I wish I can go do the Black Friday thing instead I am having Friday blues...

I was watching Beyonce's show in Vegas on ABC last night. It was a pretty good segment. While I was watching it, it had me thinking about LOVE. I respect the love that Jay-Z & Beyonce share. They are very on the low of their relationship and marriage. I mean two people can be in love and there is no need to be all public about it. They are not hiding or denying their love for each other but they just don't talk about it. He does what he has to do and so does she. I want that kind of love. I envy their love. It's not a hip hop thing nor the white thing, black thing, asian thing or spanish thing, it's just the LOVE THING. And I want that!!! And the reason I am not in anything right now is because I would not settle for less. Everyone has their standards. I have been through so much in the past and I have given/taken so much that when I start a relationship in the future, I will be ready for that person. I am preparing and renewing myself for an improvement. There is always room for an improvement, I believe.

And the future awaits...

Weekend Recollection 11/20 - 11/22

Friday...

This was the longest work day ever. I couldn't wait to get home. Well not home so much although I love HOME, what's coming after when I get home was very very exciting. I was meeting the girls to watch "The Twilight Saga : New Moon". Tickets were bought in advance by a friend and she's taking me to see this with her friends. Even with the tickets we had to stand on line to get in for 10 minutes shy of 2 hours. We had people bribing and wanting to be a part of us so they can cut the line. The movie was AWESOME. After the movie, the girls persuaded me to read the books so I can fully enjoy the saga. So I am thinking about it. I met 8 people prior to the movie and the group dynamic was awesome. I've been people with so much drama so I enjoyed this group to the fullest.

Before heading home, I had my coworker begging to have a drink with her so I agreed to it. ::smh:: I had a drink since the meet up time for the movie was 30 minutes earlier than the time set up initially.

Saturday...

I had plans to go to the movie with my cousin but it got cancelled. I was just having that kind of day. But I did have a blockbuster night with mommy and cousin. The movies were funny, "The Proposal" & "Vicky Christina Barcelona".

Sunday...

My cough was still lingering so I didn't go to the birthday party for a one year old. I didn't want bunch of mothers after me for getting all their babies sick. I took a trip to Barnes & Noble. I love bookstores. I didn't do my laundry or any cleaning this weekend. I have Turkey day for it. :-)

Don't Judge Me!!! LOL.

How Far Do You Let People In?

Once in a while I think about how intimate I should get on my blog. There is a list of blogs I read on the daily basis. The list varies with different topics. I also read blogs which reveal lots of personal things. I still haven't found my niche in the blog world but I know that I don't want to get too personal. There is always possibilities of becoming friends with fellow bloggers then it would be my choice if I want to let people in my life or not. One thing I always know what not to do, I don't judge the book by the cover although I pretty much have keen senses on peoples' characteristics. But I am getting the feeling that I am being judged by my blog. Oh wells. I can't please everyone. Have a great day!!!

Weekend Recollection 11/13 - 11/15

Friday...

The longest work day ever... The rain had to come for the weekend. UGH! But I guess, whatever! I mean nothing that an umbrella couldn't fix. It is what it was. But the only thing annoyed me was when it rains, we get train problems. I don't know why but we just do. So I had a long ride home hopping on more trains then I needed to. Then dad did the honor and picked me up from Flushing. Thank you Daddy! And please tell me why the ex was calling me like it was okay for him to call me.

Saturday...

I was coughing my lungs out the whole day. I hate this season for this reason alone. I get this horrible cold and it won't go away. I did some cleaning and went to CVS to get some medicine for the cough that won't go away.

Sunday...

I was going to go out but I decided to stay in to do the laundry and some more cleaning. A friend of mine from FL BBMed me and I was sorta surprised for the fact that we had a long meaningful conversation over it. One of the topic he asked was why I am not sharing myself out there. LOL. So I told him this...dude, I do go out and the last time I went out, I got hit on by the marrieds, the taken and the NON-English speakers. That right there was no win situation. Anyways...he gave me some encouraging words like I was in depression which I am not. I am practically happy with my life right now. Things can always get better and there is always a room for an improvement. Anywho, good BBM conversation overall and I ended my night with some Wanda Sykes.

I had a great weekend. I hope everyone enjoyed theirs.

What Do I Really Want???

I have been sitting here thinking about what's really been going on with me. I feel like I am drifting away from myself. Then I realized I am reforming/restructuring myself. I want to be ready when I am in the next relationship. Dudes come at me and all I am doing is like be nice about it and then I keep it moving. I need more than appearance. I need someone who I can have a real conversations for hours and they mean something. Is that too much to ask for???

So...this morning, I was on the subway as I would be like any other week day. There was a guy who was throwing smiles my way like I am a rock star. So not to be rude or anything, I smiled back. I have this mean mug on every time I am on the public transportation because there are crazies out there. Ha! Anyways, I guess that smile must have encouraged him to walk up to me. Whatever! So he said hello and I said hi. There is nothing wrong with that until he started saying bunch of things and I had no idea what he was saying because his accent was so strong. Trust me, I migrated from other continent so I understand how accents can be. But what I didn't understand was why he needed to tell me I was beautiful like 10 times in a minute and homeboy had nothing else to say. I mean I gave him a chance to throw something my way to have me interested with a conversation that would have started with other things like do you work around here, what do you do...anything except for me being beautiful. I thanked him and went about my business. O and that didn't end there, he wanted my number. WHY??? Dude, do you actually have something to say? I hardly understand you. I don't know. The thing that worry me the most is I do not want to see him again at the station. If I do, I will say I have a man. :::SMH:::

Weekend Recollection 11/7 - 11/8

Saturday...

I stayed in bed for a long time because I had the worst headache of all hit me like there was no tomorrow. Then I got up to help my mom for lunch/dinner. We ate and I had to lay back down because I honestly thought my quarterly migraine was visiting me. UGH! But when I got up I felt so much better. I took a shower to wake myself up more and then my parents called to see if I wanted to go to the strip where they had stores with them, perfect timing, so they can pick me up. Great! I was ready when they got me and then we ended up staying at the strip until the stores closed. Then I headed to UNOs. I had the usual... 2 Margaritas, 1 Malibu Pineapple and a shot of Jack! I couldn't drink more since I was recovering from a migraine but the most important thing was NYC blues were all over the place. I'd like to keep my license. ;-) BBM with Jill a bit, watched some shows and was out like a light!

Sunday...

I did the 3 hours of mall walking and it was very liberating. No one to worry about. I went into stores, checked out things and bought what I needed. No need to wait for anyone. I got home and did the laundry.

Although I didn't do much, I had a great weekend. I hope everyone had a great one as well.

We are the Champions... NY Yankees 27th Championship!!!

Nuff said!!!

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Ummm YUM!

So I was getting ready this morning and catching up with Monday Wendy show. And this was who I saw as her guest on Monday, MARK SALLING! What an eye candy! So he plays a character on Glee. I don't watch that show but damn he is fine. Anyways...it's always great starting my day off with such beauty. Thank you, Wendy!!!

*Sidenote* I published my first video on YouTube. It's my first video so it's such a raw material but what the hey. I have to start somewhere.

Weekend Recollection 10/30 - 11/1

Friday...

I wasn't feeling good at work all day and I couldn't wait to run home. I was beat. When I got home, I was in my bed under the blankets. I took some Aleve and I was straight to call it a Saturday.

Saturday...

Happy Halloween!!!
My dad woke me up for a good deal I couldn't pass on for the brakes for my car. I did the rear breaks along with the rotors. *ching ching* I intended to do the laundry...the secret word...INTENDED..., but didn't happen. I stayed home sick and handed out candies. I decided to participate in the Halloween festivities next year! The Yankees did great.

Sunday...

I did the laundry, Zumba, took a shower, more laundry and did the Walgreens run. And yes all in that order. The Yankees did great again with a little heart attack they tried to give me. Dammit Yankees. But it's all good. I enjoyed both game days.

I hope everyone had a great weekend.

Right now...

1. It's very annoying that it's raining in NY again.

2. I am very disappointed that I haven't had a meaningful conversation in awhile. (mental stimulation is a must)

3. I really don't understand why the past don't like to stay there. There is a reason why it's the past.

4. I never knew I was a girly girl. Although I am still not one of those who are afraid to break a nail.

5. I watch and can talk about sports with guys. I guess that makes me not a full blown girly girl. LOL!

6. I need to get away with a total stranger I trust. (where would I find one of those?, HA!)

7. I get bored easily with boring people who think they are so interesting.

8. I love my family.

9. Thinking very heavy on making a vlog on youtube. (should I or shouldn't I?)

10. The last time I read Cosmo was in July. (I have to catch up with my subscription. ::SMH::)

11. I need to get back on Zumba and my thesis.

12. I want to see Tyler Perry's "I Can Do Bad All By Myself" and "Law Abiding Citizen".

13. I need a "Reggie Bush" in my life.

14. I miss my long hair, but I manage with my whatever length now. WHATEVER!

15. I am content, not too sure it's a good thing or bad thing but for now it is what it is.

16. I want "Crab Shanty" from City Island. Those crab legs are so long over due. lol.

I hope everyone is having a great day.

Weekend Recollection 10/24 - 10/25

Saturday...

It rained the whole day it was sickening. Dad told me to take mom to Macy's while he cooked so there we went including my cousin and we came back so late. But dinner was ready when we got back. I love those kind of days. I basically caught up with all my shows on DVR so I was happy about that.

Sunday...

I woke up with a headache. UGH! I meant to do laundry today but I didn't get to do it. I just relaxed and I am glad I did. I enjoyed the Yankees. They were the best way to shut down my weekend!!! Yes we are going to the world series. I am uber excited.

I hope everyone had a great weekend!

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Did I need the retail therapy?

.....Every morning I get ready for work, I either have to put on the TV or the radio to get in the mood. Anyways...I digress like there is no tomorrow so putting on either/or doesn't help me. ::shrug:: So after I hopped out of the shower, I decided to put on the TV and the newsman on NY1 said something about how they will make the then club, the Limelight, into the Limelight Market. The news showed the progress of the place and it brought me back so much memories. That was the first club I've been to back in High School. Although I don't remember much, I remember being the responsible one and looked out for all of us who went that night. I like the market idea and I think I will definitely check it out when it's on the up and up in Spring 2010.

I am feeling a bit girly today. Maybe changing the nail polish color (Pink Parfait) last night while watching the Yankees. And I am wearing pink and black. I am definitely feeling girly today. I went to Claire's to get some accessories during lunch. I had 2 apples and water for lunch. All of those I did during lunch without anyone was such a great idea. I didn't feel as if I need to check with someone if they wanted to stop by a store with me or not. I felt so free and happy. I needed to feel that way.

Have a juicy day...

Have a great weekend everyone!

Right Here Right Now

I don't want to be in a relationship but I do want to be in-like. It would be some what of a cute thing if I have someone that I want to be around to call upon on to do whatever. I do miss being able to trust someone that I can fall asleep in their arms. I just realized I am not so sure what I exactly want at this moment but I can definitely say I am missing something. I think I got the blues.

2009 VH1 Hip Hop Honors Show

I dvr-ed it although I know they will replay it again and again on VH1. I finally saw it on Sunday. It was great hearing all the songs from back in the days and I enjoyed it to the max. I know I might be a little too late on this but DAMN!, that boy up there is so fine. I am not into pants down on the ass but I can't discredit him for that. *wink* Yes I see you, Trey! And that is all I gotta say. YUM!

Weekend Recollection 10/16 - 10/18

Friday...

Even though I worked for 3 days the week, I needed the weekend like the next dude on the street. As soon as I got home, I took my nail polish off thinking I can do my nails for the baby shower but I was occupied with stuff (I still don't remember what they were) so I didn't get to do it. I saw the Yankees on TV and I had a blast. The boys played well.

Saturday...

I got up to get ready for the baby shower. Then I got a BBM asking me if I had any plans meeting up with people. I had no problem meeting up with anyone but not when I have to go out of my way to meet those people up to pick them up. What the hell was that? Okay so what I am about to say/type is going to make me look like a bitch but right about now I really don't care. I have been in many situations where people have offer me/my services to themselves. I mean let me have my own choice, let me do the offering. Don't plan among each other and make me feel like if I was stupid and oblivious to what was going on. I hate it. I got so annoyed I was to the point I didn't even want to go anymore. Since I made plans to go and I got the gift already, I went. I stayed for a bit and I left. The shower was ok. It wasn't universal at all. It was for all Spanish speaking folks. Non-Spanish speaking folks like me felt like someone has dropped me off in D.R.. It was all good. I went out, I had fun and I headed home. I watched the playoff and the boy did it again.

Sunday...

I was waken up rudely by nature (and no I didn't pee in my bed, it's female issues, LOL). I had to get up wash my sheets and take the shower. In a way, I finished my chores early and I spent time with my parents. We all sat in the living room and talked. I don't remember when was the last time we did that. I loved it. I went to sleep early for a change even then it was at 12 am mark. *smh* And guess what??? I didn't hear a peep from those heffas who wanted a ride from me on Saturday.

I hope everyone had a great weekend.

Weekend Recollection 10/9 - 10/13

Friday...

I was pretty excited to get home, pack my stuff and be on my merry way to VA. I made plans with my cousins so I was looking forward to it. We got to VA so late. But I guess that was expected if you leave anywhere at 7:30 and the trip takes at least 5 hours to get there.

Saturday...

Happy Birthday Kyi Kyi. My aunt's birthday and she threw a birthday party for her. Then after that I went to the outlets with my cousins and then headed to Burmese restaurants after that we went to Bestbuy because I have a tech bug in me and I had to scratch that itch. LOL. But I didn't get anything. But I got myself sunglasses from the outlet. My dad had his reunion so my parents were there while I was rampaging Walmart. I secretly love that store. I bought shampoos & conditioners, leg warmers and nail polishes.

Sunday...

I stayed in bed late then had lunch. And I packed while I sang my heart out on Karaoke. My uncle seemed to enjoyed it. LOL. Then we headed out to NY. As much as I had fun and didn't want to leave, I can't wait to get home.

Monday...

It's Columbus day! Federal holiday so the bank are closed. Yay for me. So I vegged out in bed.

Tuesday...

I took a day off. The very last day of my sick/personal days of the year. So I enjoyed it to the fullest. I went out with my mom to get a baby shower gift for Saturday.

Sometimes I Forget...

First day back to work. I took a day off but combined with the Columbus day and the weekend, I had the total of 4 days off. I was in heaven until I got back to work today. Ugh just UGH! I literally had to do two days work on top of the mistake they made, the auditors had questions, and all of the sudden no one knows how to do anything. I was thinking how did they all survive without me. I worked straight from the time I got in which was at 8:45 until 4:45. They had me working there like I was a street walker. *smhh* I have a headache. I need a bear hug.

Mom's first day back to work also.

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LOL...

Hahaha...isn't that the cutest thing? My little cousin and his first try with the ladies. So adorable.

I felt so used...

...AND IT WON'T HAPPEN AGAIN!!!

I leave people behind when I feel I was being taken for granted. Even then I was kind enough and I let my guard down.

~ background ~

I used to go to High School with this girl...let's call her Diva. Ha! She has the diva attitude but her look, not so much. She always made me feel like she wants to do things with me and talk to me when she has nothing to do. I know everyone is that way in one way or another but she makes it so obvious. But anyways, she is now married and I guess she is having problems with her husband. So she called me on Sunday while I was busy with my family but I still entertained her with her problems because I felt bad. She is one of those people who thinks marriage can fix and change a person. What a mistake!

so yesterday...she called and she wanted to see if I wanted to meet up after work (she is not working right now), and I said yes since she is having problems. But guess what the chick did??? She left me hanging, while we were at the store after she paid, when her husband called.

WHATEVER!!!

Weekend Recollection 10/3 - 10/4

Saturday...

I was rudely interrupted out of my sleep into cleaning and setting up beds for 5 family members that were on their way from VA. After that I took a shower knowing I wouldn't be able to when they arrived. They finally got to the house around 1 and we all had lunch together and headed to the Burmese concert at BMCC. I saw the concert in MD back in September but I had to see it again. (yes, I enjoyed it that much!) But the public transportation on the weekend was craziness. After the concert, we headed to Chinatown for dinner with a couple of arguments here and there. We got home at 2 in the morning...

Sunday...

Pretty much chilled and went to have brunch at Saigon Grill. And we headed to Flushing to do some shopping for VA and to have shaved ice desserts. YUM! Then we all just relaxed and watched taped concert with my parents who didn't go.

I had a blast this weekend with some arguments with the family. I was so upset I cried. I hate it when I cry. Things get out of control and the minute I didn't check my emotions, there comes the tears. Don't get me wrong, I don't cry easily but I was pushed to the limit.