Random Thoughts...

I found myself thinking ~

~ how much I miss tracing your face with my fingers (yes, you are still a big deal in my memories and I just might hate myself for it)
~ I don't have to worry about how I would have to look as long as I look fabulous. (feel so good not to have a crush on anyone)
~ I get so annoyed at overly sensitive people (grow thicker skin people!!!)
~ how I am detaching myself from everyone.
~ how I am enjoying myself with what I'm doing right now with the Monastery.
~ how I am not even attracted to anyone right now.
~ I want to take continuing education classes.

...anyhow...

...I am glad the weekend starts after 4:30 PM and I cannot wait for a minute. I have nothing planned for the weekend except my cousin and I might go to the movies and the Monastery (of course!). I need to get father's day card for daddy (last minute, I know). I might have to owe him a gift because I am as broke if not more than the next business person. (shame on me!) But I am definitely looking forward to the weekend so that I can get some sleep that I lost during the week.

I'm in the NJ State of Mind...What a Weekend!

It's Sunday and I got up so early. It's the weekend for my sake. WTH! I have things to do. I didn't even start my laundry yet. I went to the "Yate Thar" and listened to "Tar Yar". I run to the bank and headed to NJ to visit my friends. I had a great time. I got lost as usual when I go to them. I didn't fail at that this time either. LOL! I got home and did 3 loads of laundry. I am tired as hell. I wish I can have some margaritas to relax. Hell I deserve from the way my weekend has started.

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

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Wedding Weekend...

My cousin got married to the man of her dream on May 24, 2009. I was the maid of honor at the wedding. It was very busy and exhausting but I had a blast. We all enjoyed at. I was all out of funk because all I can think about was you. I miss you so much. I am starting to get pissed off at myself because this is getting prolonging. I mean I don't think you are missing me. I am having a hard time.

I am so exhausted inside and out. I just want to crawl in my bed and not face anyone.

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I Did What!!!...

I reinvented myself today. I created a new link for this blog. I mean you knew my old one and I don't know if you read it but why tempt you. So I did you a favor and I found me a new name for my blog. Yay me!!!

I feel better today because I am focusing on the wedding. I haven't written a speech yet. I don't know what I'm waiting for. It sucks to be me right now. But as always I believe in myself. I can do this with eyes closed. Lol!

I am on the road on the way to VA. Dad is driving and it's a beautiful thing. I will be knocked out pretty soon. :).

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Busy Weekend...

So...in order for me talk about the weekend, I have to start from Thursday. So Thursday was a good day for me. Work wasn't as busy as other days although it could have been because of the holiday. Anyways, who was I to complain. And I couldn't wait 'til I got off work. I get to see Drew. Yay! The most wonderful human being ever! I love spending time with him. He makes me happy. So we had Malaysian food for dinner. It was great.

Friday came and the calendar said GOOD FRIDAY! Its a holiday for U.S. of A. but I was thinking, every Friday is a good Friday to me! ;). There was hardly any work on Friday and I wished I didn't have to work. Then they supposedly let us out early from work that day. YEAH RIGHT! Well whatever time it was, I was grateful it wasn't 4:30 the usual time. As soon as I got home, I packed! Yeah, I PACKED! And left for VA. I had to go for the bride's dress fitting and makeup test.

We ran around back and forth on route 7 like chickens without heads. But got all the stuff done! That's what important, right?!

We are heading back today. When I get home, I have a whole load of laundry waiting for me. But I can't wait to be home. There is no place like home. And, a day closer to happiness!

Hope everyone is having a great weekend! Oh yea, HAPPY EASTER! Happy Hunting! :)

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Hello Monday!...

I had planned to write something over the weekend and it didn't happen. Every time I started to write something, I got up to 4 lines and then I just say to myself, this is a bad blog and I deleted the whole thing. It happened like 5 times so I told myself not to even write anything.

I had fun spending time with my friend and her family. She threw down the best breakfasts and lunch ever and of course right after my mom. We haven't seen each other in years. I enjoyed the family time and the girls time.

Even though I had a busy weekend, I am better this morning than I thought I was going to be. I had today played out in my mind as I was going to be restless and tired. But hey, I am not back in the office yet. It can be a hectic day in there because I might have to move back to my desk. I can't wait! I mean it was alright being in the office and all but I got all these jealous people saying congratulations and asking me when I got the promotion. If you ass wipes see the whole in the wall by my desk, you wouldn't be saying that. And I hated the office because I felt like I was on the display. I don't think I would be able to scratch my ass without everyone seeing. When I have the best seat in the house why would I want that office. They wouldn't understand that because they are all children in there.

Anyways...I was in short skirt and flip flops over the weekend and now I am freezing. :( I wish I don't have to deal with the cold. I don't think I will ever get used to this weather.

I hope everyone had a great weekend and Happy Monday! And Happy Lunar New Year!!!

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I tried...

to have as rested weekend as I could and for the most part, I did. So rested that I didn't even think updating my blog 'til this morning when I couldn't go to sleep. Did I have lots to write about? Yes! Did I write about them? No! So ladies and gentlemen, yes, yours truly is yet again contemplating right before your eyes.

Since we are on the TRYING subject, I also tried, well that part I don't try much because it comes naturally, to be a good friend to people who are good to me. Most people assume I am not sensitive and they start saying mean thing. I don't want to get into the whole story but I got hung up on last night. I mean I used to hang up on people but it was like 10 years ago. I tried not to do that anymore because I don't want it done to me yet it happened last night. I knew what happened but I truly believe I didn't deserve to be hung up on. Needless to say, I didn't call back.

Why should I? I didn't hang up!!!

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Do me a favor...

I had a weekend full of bliss in many levels. I mean what kind of blissfulness would you want. Snow? Happiness? Sleeplessness? (All types of blissfulness) Giants lost but what the hey! Now back to Monday and not a care in the world and as far as I'm concerned I am still happy even its Monday and all. of course sleepy but happy. The sleepiness will never go away in my world.

I stayed up until 1:30 AGAIN! I think I'm on mission of self destruction. It has got to be. Who else would do it to themselves knowing MONDAY is the first day of the work week. I am hoping there is someone just like me out there crazy enough to stay up. I was up catching up on my shows, bonding with my DVR (the best thing they can ever invent after VCRs) so to speak!

I hope everyone had a blissful weekend...

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