There is a saying...

"You can't beat 'em, Join 'em!"

I have a funny story. Well not really funny because those are my feelings but what else can I do but LAUGH! Me and my luck, I say!

So I have been feeling crappy for almost a week. And I sit there day after day to analyze myself WTH was wrong with me. Nothing was wrong. I am in love!!! I don't think, nor guess, I AM!!!

The funny part is that I am not even with the person that I am in love with. He decided he doesn't want to be with me. Well this is how I came to realize that I'm in love. For all these times I was with him, I was falling for him. There are things that I was willing to do because I want to be with this man. He didn't ask from me. I wanted to. I still want to. But that's not all of it. But you can't clap with one hand, right! So like I mentioned in my previous entries, I keep replaying moments we had, emails and things that we talked about. And no I am not living in the past. I am trying to understand why I can't let this go. And the audience, this is the reason why. I AM IN LOVE! I will never tell him this because he told me it's best if we ended. So I gave him what he wanted. So why tell the man I'm in love with him, so he can laugh at me? So I keep this to myself and make peace with it. It could have been a beautiful thing. I guess if it was meant to be he will be back or not, but I have to set him free. So I did.

People make mistakes, it depends on if you want to work things out and see what the outcome will be. But he didn't even leave anything open for us to continue. He wants nothing to do with me and I still have love for him. So I say this to myself, GOOD LUCK, YOU NEED IT!!!

Love is one of a kind and for now...love is a bitch and I live with it!!!

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Twitter...

I tried so hard not to be on another social networking site and I got sucked into it like a black hole. I joined Twitter today. All it does is updating WTH you do. First I thought who really cares what you do. Then, I decided I do. I am going to update this site like there is no tomorrow. Kind of exciting!!!

Sometimes...

...I feel like I am so tired that I don't want to deal with anything. Things do make me feel a BLAH on some days then that's when I say WHATEVER! I don't like saying WHATEVER because it sounds childish so I try not to say it often.

But WTH, WHATEVER!!! LOL!

OMG!

The weather is changing like we are in winter wonderland. WTH! The only problem I have is that I have to wait for the bus and the winds blows right in my face. Sometimes I wish I still drive to work and my job is like 5 minutes away. This an hour and a half commute everyday is killing me. But I have to be thankful I have somewhere to commute every morning on weekdays, right! So on days like this, I tell myself to suck it up and "Be a Man!, Do the right thing!" And move on!!!

And let's talk about the infamous bus and train rides. I know its a public transportation but there is always some bitch, yes I said it, some bitch thinking she owns the bus or the train and she wants to push upon me. And the EMILY in me comes out early in the morning. Why must you do this to me people? Why don't you stay in your corner and I don't have to get UGLY!!!



But the rest of you out there, enjoy your day!!!

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