I Feel Sad...

Sometimes I just sit and think endlessly and I have this sense of sadness and I start to feel the pain. Right now, I am sitting on the back of the bus and I feel as if I have lost so much in my life. There is something definitely missing in my life. I can't seem to concentrate and am not happy. When I see people who are so happy, I envy them. I don't want to have what they have but I want to know when my happiness will come and stay with me. My day will come...hopefully...

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Missing You...

I miss you so much it hurts. I don't cry anymore because I'm all cried out but it feels empty. *sad*

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I Lay Awake...

At nights, I can't go to sleep. Once I close my eyes, I wake up exactly in 15 minutes looking for you because I feel the emptiness in my chest. Is that even normal? I don't wish this kind of pain on anyone. There is that strong attachment taking over me. I still do what I have to do on daily routines and maintain the "me" part but my thoughts are always with you. I want to be numb.


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Have you...

ever missed someone so much that you feel the emptiness in your chest and the hurt? It's really not a good feeling but when you do feel that, that's when you really realize how much that person mean to you and you need to have them in your life. I miss you so much but at this point there is nothing I can say or do anymore. I keep replaying things we have said to each other, plans that we make, things that I would like to do with you.

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