Friends or Foes or Frenermies?

Each and everyday, I am figuring things and people out more and more. It's blessing to know how and what the nature of things and people yet it's sad that I am finding myself surrounded with bunch of fakes and foes. If one proclaims as my enemy, at least, I know how to proceed, but now I have enemies amongst friends and sometimes it's so tiring to differentiate between the two. And when I say I surround myself, it doesn't mean I literally surround myself. I have no choice. I know you'd be thinking everyone has a choice. Yes, I totally agree. But I have no choice if I have to be at a certain place like work force or school or social gatherings or family environments.

Life is nothing but a big lesson to learn. I can benefit from it when and if I learn from my daily experience.

I Am Exhausted!

I have been working and then going to "Tar Yar" events. I haven't had a "ME" time for awhile. I have things lined up until the end of this month. I am not complaining because that's things I love to do but I am exhausted. I am allowed to be tired. Then once in awhile I have thoughts that creep in and making me want to think about unthinkable. NOT GOOD AT ALL!!! Those are what I call, RELAPSE! Then I remind myself to stay away from evil thoughts. I mean they are not as evil as anyone would be thinking but to me they sure are. I am supposed to go forward not backward. Although, my dad has told me that I am like crabs...I go sideways. LOL. Whatever that means.

Yesterday, I realized something about boys...they don't like it when they are asked by their girlfriends and wives on what they are doing later with their time but when girls who are their friends ask, they are perfectly okay with it. Weird but whatever.